My Mothers Mess

Man life has seemed to change so rapidly. Where do I even start?

In the last 2 weeks, I have started back a relationship with my mother, started an anti-anxiety medication, and our whole world seems to have gone to shit.

I had been hearing about the carnivorous here and there, didn’t think to much of it, honestly, just thought it was something that was happening some where else.
Then last Thursday I looked at the kids school web site, it said ” there will be a regular school day on Friday” Huh??? Of course there would be.. why wouldn’t there be?? The answer.. Covid-19 !

I had been mostly distancing myself for the week before, I hear it was a couple counties away. But Friday.. .Life for all of us changed.  It was announced that the kids would be out of school until April 24th. thats 6 weeks.. SIX WEEKS.. This must be serious. We are supposed to social distance until then. Only go out for essentials, and keep 6 feet from others. People are not listening, and I feel its to late. I am concerned how this is going to turn out.

Then we had confirmed cases in our town, then 4, then 7, then 10, 14, and on. One death.. two deaths.. Shit got really fricking real.

So many conflicting things to look for.. cough and fever.. No runny nose.. No sore throat… I have no idea what I am supposed to be watching for. Is it just elderly? No, its everyone.. I still dont know. Its people with compromised immune systems… Do I have an underlying condition I dont know about?

My nose is stuffy, runny, I have a lump in my throat, I am watching my breaths. Should I be panicking? T keeps coughing… I cant panic, I started taking medication to keep me from panicking, before I even knew about this. Was it a sign? Was the lord trying to prepare me for this situation,  to help keep me from loosing my mind?

I think that the kids and I are going to start making a nightly video vlog each night of the social shutdown..

Today I am more nervous then I have been this whole time… I dont know why today seems so more real. Maybe because everything in town is shutting down. My normal Starbucks wasnt even open this morning, only 3 are left open. Its insane… Macy’s, kohl s, JCPennys, Dicks, Micheal’s, Joann’s, Everything… Is.. .Closed !!!